When they asked about my report in the court nothing tangible was written down. What they said it was like i was lying.

When they asked about my report in the court nothing tangible was written down. What they said it was like i was lying. Before that day I was complaining to them, the way I am feeling. I am feeling stressed. I am hearing voices. I lost my husband. Nothing was written about that. They are saying I’m lying. I reported it because I am feeling pain in my leg and my arm, that is what cause me to fall down that day. They don’t care about my life. I loose my husband for god sake. Now they are still looking at me like I am pretending. How can I pretend to loose a loved one.
When they took my medical report they said I am fixed, everything is all rights. They are telling me I am lying, that I’m OK.
What can they do to help me? I looked after my husband and when got arrested I told them about my husband. What can they do to prevent my husband to die? They said I would abscond but my husband is British so where am I going to abscond to? They didn’t get someone to look after my husband and six weeks after I was arrested my husband died. Now because I don’t have a husband they say I have to return to my country. My life is in danger in my country.
What is happening in the kitchen now. I am working in the kitchen, which I believe they are supposed to give facilities for ladies to go to the toilet. When I was in the prison they had two toilets and I was expecting that. When you leave the officers search you. I never knew that. I was about to go to the toilet. I asked, ‘Please can you show me the toilet?’ The lady said we didn’t have toilets. I was so stressed. I had my period I needed to go to the toilet. ‘We don’t have toilets here’. They had to get an officer to search me before I could go outside. The officer I spoke to was a woman I asked her to search me so I could go out, but she said she couldn’t. I had to wait over 15 minutes for an officer and I weed on my body. That was cruel. That’s the was we are treated here. I can’t treat my animal like that, the way they are treating us here. If anyone told me this treatment I wouldn’t have believed it but it happened to me. If they can’t look after us they should let us go. I have finished my sentence they are keeping me here. They should let me go. One mistake. They won’t give us another opportunity.

Theres fire in Yarl’s Wood. Its spreading.

Theres fire in Yarl’s Wood. Its spreading. Its coming from crane. The police are there. The fire is very powerful. They say there is a fire door but the door is on fire. Three girls have gone to hospital already. We all think we are going to die. The girls are screaming and crying. They think they are going to die. Fire, ambulance and police truck. Don’t cry, don’t dry. 

They are trying to put the fire out. The police are at our block now and saying it is under control.

One Indian girl, she has asthma. We don’t want to die, we don’t want to die. Don’t cry, don’t cry. FIRE FIRE FIRE. All the girls are screaming screaming. We are OK. Its ok its OK. WAKE UP WAKE UP. Everyone is screaming, too many things going on. 

They want to kill us so we don’t fight. They are trying to kill us so we don’t fight. 

Fours girls now go to hospital. One girl has epilepsy. She has gone. 

We don’t know how the fire started. A woman set herself on fire. She want to kill herself she put fire on herself. The officers were saying things to her and set herself on fire. You are supposed to go into the garden but they were telling people go into their room. Four people have set themselves on fire. Everyone is scared. They are taking down that people are on phones and contacting people. This needs to stop. 

If this door was a fire door it would not go on fire. 

I want to tell you about what’s going on with the fire

I want to tell you about what’s going on with the fire. There was a a big fire. A woman was going through stress. She was crying and no one was paying any attention. A woman tried set the room on fire. She light the room and she was sitting there. There was smoke. There were a lot of screaming and crying. The fire brigade were here. It happened about 20 minutes ago. Everyone had to go to the gym.

It’s really bad. It’s really bad. It’s getting from bad to worse. You don’t know what’s happening here. You can be sleeping and die because of the smoke. Anything can happen because of the stress people are going through. You don’t know what can happen. It’s really really bad tonight.

Everywhere you go you can smell the smoke. People had to cover their nose. Even people upstairs.

Four people have gone to hospital. I don’t know if the woman was okay because they had to pull her out. I don’t know what’s happened now.

Yarl’s Wood needs to close down. People are suffering here.

They are using us to work for £1

They are using us to work for £1. Most of them here they are coming from prison because they are working illegally. So now the immigration removal prisons are using us to do the laundry, to cook, to wash. The working conditions are really bad. In the kitchen we cook the food, washing the plates for £1 per hour. Too many girls don’t want to do it but we have no choice. Its threatening behaviour. Here when you are not working, when you are not doing nothing its bad if you go to court. You can’t get your bail because your report is not good. So most of the women here they don’t want to do that but that’s the choices they have. Because they are coming from prison from working illegally. So when you go to court you have to show your report. And if you aren’t working you don’t get a good report. They want you to show you are a good character. They are threatened.
This beg bugs business is really important. They need to close down Yarl’s Wood. Some of the women here have HIV and the bug are sucking the blood. So we are stress. Very stressed. Cos we don’t know if the bed bugs are carrying the disease or not. People are frightened.

A lot has happened here. I’ve been here seven months.

A lot has happened here. I’ve been here seven months. The health care is rubbish, it is very poor. I’m sick but they can’t take care of me here. The food is rubbish. Last week there was a cockroach inside the food, the vegetarian food. A cockroach. They are keeping all the people here. 70 years. Pregnant people, old people, sick people. They don’t take people to the hospital. There is a lady who get pregnant in here cos she was with her husband. They moved her husband because she got pregnant and kept her here. She is five months pregnant. She is not even getting proper food to eat. Yesterday someone took her food. It was just dry rice and she didn’t eat, she went to bed hungry. All this is going on here its not right. Something has to be done. If you book an appointment to see a doctor is takes two weeks to see a doctor. They don’t respect us at all. It ages before they give you your parcel. It takes long. I am depressed. I am on anti depressants. I do have therapy. The seized my extensions to plait my hair. Three months now they have never given me my extension.

I’ve been bitten so many time by bed bugs. Its all over my body.

I’ve been bitten so many time by bed bugs. Its all over my body. Its causing me discomfort and i’ve got dots all over and swollen legs. I’ve got antibiotics, I only started yesterday so I will have to see if it works. At the moment I can’t see any improvement. There is nothing I can do. They did move me from the room but my legs are swollen and I can’t walk properly. 

At approximately 12:07 at lunch time officers chased a woman down the corridor

At approximately 12:07 at lunch time officers chased a woman down the corridor. A loud sound was heard as though someone was thrown to the ground. When we came out to see what was happening there was three officers pinning down a lady. Additional officers chased us into our rooms and locked the doors. One of the officers said, ‘She just fell and hurt herself, nothing to see.’ However at this time they had thrown a towel over her head and had her pinned down on the floor. The officers kept yelling, ‘Go into your rooms’ even though we were already in our rooms and peeking through our doors. When questioned as to what more they wanted us to do – we are already in our rooms – one female officer said very rudely, ‘Because we are telling you to go into your rooms and you wouldn’t like it if everyone was staring at you lying on the floor.’ Someone said, ‘Yes i would because then I would have witnesses to whatever was happening to me.’ Another male officer came up and said ‘we are trained to do this. This is our job so just go into your room.’ After about 15 minutes we started to peep out to see if it was OK. The corridors were clear and the doors were opened again and everyone was trying to figure out what had happened. An officer who was passing through the corridor heard us talking to each other about what we had each seen happen. He told us the lady tried to commit suicide and they were trying to prevent her from doing so. But we didn’t understand why if someone was already in a distressed state why would you pin them to the floor and throw a towel over their head? The officer said, ‘She is downstairs in the office with someone who speaks her language and she will be coming back up.’ And that’s about it for today. So far.

I’ve been in Yarl’s Wood for a year. I lost everything.

I’ve been in Yarl’s Wood for a year. I lost everything. I was arrested by immigration 4 years ago. My husband was disabled – I asked to be able to look after my husband but they wouldn’t let me. They said I would run away. Where am I going to run to? I have no where to go. I asked them to arrange people to look after him but they wouldn’t. He was a British man. Then my husband died six weeks after I was arrested. I don’t know where even he is buried now. And now they want to send me back. I’m an orphan and now they make me a widow. I need fight for justice. They make me depressed but I need to fight for justice. They killed my husband.  Where is the justice? I’m scarred of my life. I’m scarred. My life has been trashed. I don’t want to even talk about it.

We stayed out until almost 2 o’clock. Very late.

We stayed out until almost 2 o’clock. Very late. They were busy counting us outside. They were begging us to come in but we didn’t come back. They wanted to count us inside but they had to count us outside. And we were mixing around so they kept on messing the counting. They wanted us to stay still. They have to stop counting us, we are human beings. You’re not supposed to count us. We didn’t eat. Most of us didn’t go in. We’re going at 12 o’clock back out. We’ll be there.

One of the women passed out at 10 o’clock and they took her to healthcare. She’s back in her room now. The IMB woman came to check on her this morning. She cannot remember what happened yesterday. She can’t talk, she’s confused. The woman is sick, she’s tired. She’s here, she can’t even walk. We have to support her. Why is it like this?