I went straight way to UK home office for claim asylum. But got 7 month prison with humiliation and shame, and forced to thinking I am not normal
(Because I am Gay)
I am write this my story to explain problems with me since last summer. When I went home office straight way and claimed asylum and faces till now. I am in detention last from 7 months.
I was born in 1990 in India. I am homosexual person. I claimed asylum about my sexuality (Gay) and my gay partner here. He is from Pakistan (Muslim). I went straight way to home office for claim asylum.
I am having been in a committed relationship with my partner nearly 2 years. It’s very difficult to find someone who you can trust in this day and age. We have grown together mentally and spiritually and have found the perfect soul mates each other. We are simply made for each other. My life is empty without him.
We are from two different religious. I am Sikh and my partner is Muslim. We never want to apart and want continue to grow our relationship and be with each other for as long as possible.
Our communities do not accept us. Gays in our religions are not accepted. The Authorities in our community do not accept us.
United Kingdom makes us feel safe and we feel we have human rights here and have no fear of being who we naturally are. My partner and I are settled here and he cannot move to India with me because he is Pakistani.
Traditional Indian attitudes towards homosexuals have not changed. My own family attitudes have not changed. My own father has disowned me. None of my immediate or extended family maintains a relationship with me. I am a Sikh, where men are being proud of being men. They do not accept gays at all. Having a child who is gay brings shame on to the whole family and gays treated like Lepers. My father is priest in the temple and he is accountable to many other people and he will never accept me. I had turban and hair before when I was in India. When I came here I cut it off.
My partner on working visa in the UK. He could never go back Pakistan as our sexuality is not accepted in Pakistan it is equally frowned upon in India and being two different religious makes it very difficult to sustain our religion. He already have a lot of issues if he want to travel to India with a Pakistani passport.
I claimed asylum last summer through UKLGIG UK LESBIEN GAY IMMIGRATION GROUP. I went home office straightway. My claim was refused after a month on the basis that I can relocate within India and live normally as a homosexual. No proper weight was given to that fact that we are in relationship and that if I goes back not only I would be subjected to harm but our relationship will come to an end.
Home office accepted me I am gay. But said you can go India and can relocate there. I gave to then so many proof of my sexuality am openly gay here, fears in India with gays, bad behavior with gays in India. And proof with my partner, supporting letter from my all gay friends and from organization. My all gay’s friends knows we are gay couple from long time and LGBT group also knows.
Even in detention centre I have so many problem about my sexuality. So many time I complain to officer’s manger detention service and also IMB. But couldn’t get any good response. I have also witness statement about harassment in detention centre.
I am in detention last from 7 months no anyone here to listen or understand me. Really this UK human right which they giving me. I constantly have suicidal thoughts when I think that they will send me back. I am constantly scared and don’t eat or sleep well in here. The longer I am here my mental state keeps deteriorating.
UK where is every person got a human right and live life free and easily according to own wish. Even here animal (Dog) got a right to live freely .so why I have not? Is this UK human right? What they doing with me. My mistake is that I came straightway to home office and gave them to my passport. And my fault is that I was born like this (Gay) and I was born in India. And I love with Pakistani out of border from my country.
Really home office realized me I am Gay. This is my mistake. Because they punish me like this. Maybe if was not gay I never came home office for asylum. I strongly believe that my relationship (article 8) has been continuously violated by keeping me in detention centre and separated to me from my partner.
I am not well educated either as I left my family at a very early age to avoid constant harassment. Having left home I have been a victim to child abuse in India. For you to send me back to India, I will mentally feel tortured. It will be like you throwing in a live volcano. I will not be able to live and will commit suicide.
I have been living in the Detention Centre for a while and have had transient friends. As a gay person I have not had any harassment when I was living outside of the Detention Centre. I have faced regular harassment in home country and was free of that in London; however the same fear has now set in me as it has begun within the Detention Centre. I now constantly feel unsettled and nervous throughout the day and have difficulty sleeping at night. I have also lost my appetite in the Detention Centre. I often cry at night in my bed as I feel very very low in side. I feel humiliated, tormented and constantly scared.
Article 8 of the ECHR states that: Right to respect private and family life
- Everyone has the right to respect for his private and family life, his home and his correspondence
- There shall be no interference by a public authority with the exercise of this right except such as is in accordance with the law and is necessary in a democratic society in the interests of national security, public safety or the economic well-being of the country, for the prevention of disorder or crime, for the protection of health or morals, or for the protection of the rights and freedoms of others.
I strongly believe that my article 8 has been continuously violated, but regardless I am being stopped from having a private life with my partner.
I being in detention has an immense effect on my health and also my friends, most importantly my partner is continuously in stress and gets anxious very soon these days. My partner is getting depressed due to these conditions in which he is being forcefully stopped from having a private life and starting a family. He does not want to go to a counsellor as it will affect his career which has abundant prospects for him. I am still detained for no concrete reason. As it is suggested in the UKBA Enforcement and Guidance.
Even the ICIBI found that now it has become a norm to disregard evidence and consider detention regardless of the rights and evidence that the person has provided:
……is fuelling a culture where the default position is to identify factors that justify detention rather than considering each case in accordance with the published policy
Effects of Prolonged Detention
My health have been affected due to detention, I have mental stress and also my partner and friends suffering due to me being in detention, and in stress. When I was detained I weighted 48 kg and now my weight has decreased to 43 kg. I have developed a habit of not-eating due to depression and stress. In detention I have been victim of bully, abuse and humiliation because I am homosexual. I have been deprived of my liberty for such an extend period of time now that I am have a significant effect on my mental health and physical health; because I am uncertain that till when I will be released from detention and not to able my friends, and most importantly my partner. I have also started suffering from anxiety recently which is again having an adverse effect on my well-being.
And month ago on 29 January 2015 they took me so far from London and far from my partner. My partner and friends living in London. They can’t come here to easy meet me. I am in detention centre last from 7 months. Really I don’t want become a mad. I have also physical problem internal bleeding. But no one here to care of me. Harmondsworth health care always avoid my health problem. I need hospital treatment. I got appointment in hospital in April but not sure I will get in April or may be after. I just want to ask you my punishment not complete yet. How much I survive? I have my partner here. I can’t live without him. My partner can’t go India with Pakistani nationality.
I have no family in India even No any friend. When they will send me back in India where I will go? I also contact with LGBT in India but they didn’t give me any good response. Like name NAZ Project and UDAAN Organization. And I also sent email to INDIAN HUMAN RIGHT first they give me reply. But when I asked from them how you protect gays in India and which kind of human right you give to people. After that no reply from them. I attached new news about Indian gays. What government thinking about LGB people. And what GOA city minister said about them. Indian BJP (Bharti Janta party) and prime minister of India also with them. They want to make us normal. By medicine or other things. Am I not normal? And I have also new plenty of fresh evidence and supporting letters from my gay friends.
Home Office Made Mistake In My Case According To Me.
My case worker said I can continue my relationship in India as well if my partner here. She said I can continue my relationship on phone modern communication by skype, tango, SMS chat, etc. how it is possible. I want to know that what definition of relationship is. According to them.
They said which pics I have with my partner. Same pics with my other gay friends. So this is very little weight on my case. So mean they want to see my pornography which I couldn’t show to them. Why I? If I am gay that is that’s not mean I have no my self-respect. And according to European court law if anyone gay they don’t need to show any this kind of proof to home office for show sexuality or relationship.
They said if my partner can go Pakistan. He is well travelled to go Pakistan. Then he can arrange easily to go India and can meet me. How? If it’s easy can they arrange this arrangements for my partner and can home office can take his guarantee when he will go India. And lot of other things which home office did mistake.
Really still I have very strong case
We are both (me and my partner) suffering as we have been separated due to my immigration matter. Now we are in deep and committed to each other separating us is killing us and taking our life away. We are just empty souls without each other. We both are suffering mentally and physically due to the harsh conditions in detention centre.
No anyone knows which problems I am facing every day in detention. Where is some Asian Community treating me like an abnormal person? They see me like this they never see GAY person in life. Mam how can I hide my feelings how can I control on my feelings. I have no problem if someone call me GAY. But Asian community don’t call gay. I think they don’t know what is meaning of gay. They only know just this we are not a normal people. They use very cheap, bulgur, bad, language for us.
Where I go to ask this. Can I ask to you please? My punishment is not complete yet. My 6 months complete in detention (prison). According to home office rule include day and night my 1 year in detention centre. I am thinking this if I was not gay. May be I never came to home office direct for asylum. I am asking I am gay that’s why I am survive this punishment. And living alone without my partner. Where and which law write this if you not living together and not married then you are not real couple. They apart me separated me from him and keeping me in detention.
Really in UK detention condition is very bad. I am here gay person in detention from long time. Everyday am facing new problems in detention just about my sexuality. I been torture in India. Now as well in detention centre so many time. Why? Because I am Gay.
I asked home secretary Theresa may when my punishment will complete. Please don’t my life make worst and hell by send me back in India. I want to live my life happy, freely without any fear and humiliation with my partner in UK.
I have humble request for my life back by released me from detention centre and give back by my love my partner. And give me to right to live in United Kingdom with my partner and as an openly Gay here.
Now I got a ticket for India. My legal solicitor applied my fresh claim. I am going India. Really I don’t know what will happen with me over there. But UK immigration realized me I am Gay this is my fault. I just want to tell them please if you want to keep gay people so long in detention please open gay detention centres. Please keep separated from other detainee’s. Really I got very bad experience from this. Which I survive time in detention or which way I feel humiliation, shame, torture. I don’t want my other gay community face these things.
I sent email, letters, to so many people, organisations, for my help
- Her majesty Queen
- David Cameroon
- Theresa May
- MP of my area Barry Gardiner
- London Labour Party
- So many legal organisations
- Outside UK Canada, United States. Australia, Ireland, France, Germany
- Secretary of state William huge
- chief inspector of borders and immigration
I also got new news which is clearly shows the unacceptable, unfair treatment towards homosexuals in India. As you can see it states being homosexual you have disease which can be cured by reprograming. I find this to be unacceptable attitude. And I have also lots of new evidence (news) which are shows what is the bad behaviour with gays in India. This is new latest’s news which I am send you. I feel I cannot be myself you only have one life you should be able to live in a safe environment and live with my sweet partner openly here.
Please help me. I beg you please listen to my words. Every word is true. I am hanging on a thread and I need this governments support. I have been traumatized enough in India please don’t send me back. Please I beg you for your pity.