I was not like this before.

I produced a letter for Luna House that I got depression- and they referred me to counselling, and then they didn’t give it back to me- it’s there in the Home Office. I have been detained now I am on fast-track. I have a partner-she is pregnant. I was suffering from stress and everything and I can not properly sleep. You know, lot’s of problems are here. I tried to find the GP nine times, ten times, and they gave me the doctor- again yesterday I had the nurse. And I said I am sweating at night-time, and the way she talked to me was very rude. She told me I am making stories- she said I am going to put you in lock up, and you cannot go outside. I am depressed and I have a lot of problems going around my head. And she told me everyting- I will lock up you…and I have problems- I cannot work in Sri Lanka. I came to here as children. I had a relationship with a member of parliament, because of that issue I can’t return. They didn’t treat me properly.

I want to get my NHS number- it is inside my luggage; they took everything when I came here. When I came here I tried to get all my important documents and it’s been two weekends. And they haven’t give me. I come in the evening and they said come in the morning; I come in the morning and they said come in the evening. They treat us like foreign dogs- they are not caring about us. How can we spend the proper time for our applications? My English is not very good. Yesterday- the way she told me I was very upset. I was hunger-striking, I was protesting. I got TB in 2012- I had medication from 1 year and I have side-effects. I have diabetes and now I have depression. I hate this building. Two times they refused me- they want me to bring a GP letter, and I take a GP letter, and I say I have depression and they put me here. My partner is upset because I am here. She is pregnant and nobody is supporting for her. She is coming tomorrow. I am very scared- you can’t believe that your baby, or something like that…I can’t understand…I get very upset I feel very upset mentally. Couselling. The word counselling…when I was coming here, I was not like this. I am like a crazy person. I can’t even think, everything, because of this illness.

If you put people here; people will get mad. My partner is outside in my house- and my baby is going to come in August. She is having abdominal pains, and she can’t do anything- she can’t give a bath to our babies, and the shower stopped working. My lawyer is also…today he didn’t call me. Not I am trying to get my NHS number. All this- everything is mad here. I was not like this before, I used to work as a support worker with people with learning difficulties in July. Now I can’t concentrate- now language, everything I am forgetting because of this. I am getting angry with the people very, very, very soon. I have got depression in here- I don’t know what is the law. I don’t know if I talk about these it is going to do anything.

Yesterday in the morning I went to wash my big sheet because I had been sweating. They said no washing powder in the morning. I have nail problems because I am biting my nails because of the stress. I tried to open my locker and I damaged my hands. I told the doctor I could not sleep and he just gave me a plaster. Another time I went to get a plaster and they made me wait for one hour. The officer came and said, come another ten or fifteen minutes later. I didn’t go back there again. Today I asked them to come and open my locker- they still didn’t come. And I had to find a steel fork to open my locker, and I took my stuff outside. I am getting angry with my partner very quickly.

I am losing my mind.


They are scared that the other detainees [on strike] will provoke us.

I am detained in Colnbrook. I have been here 3 months. I’m an educated person. I’m detained here unlawfully. We had a peaceful protest- and we made our point. And we are waiting for a reasonable answer. Because you know, we have a really shameful condition. A lot of people are in this condition and we are detained here unlawfully.

We have a slogan: Persecution is less than the mental abuse that influences completely the health state of each detainee here, however everyone believes we can continually overcome the situation by our peaceful protest and address the message to everybody responsible about this unfavourable position.

We made a letter and the point of grievance, and everyone signed this letter. We sent it to European Court. We sent it to every organisation where we could have a reasonable answer. The European court have answered- they advised us to open- for each of the signatories- to apply to the court on their own behalf.

We want to make it peaceful. We want to challenge this unlawful detention.

We are willing to make hunger strike from Monday in Colnbrook- and everybody is going to share with us this protest. There are more than 400 of us.

The relationship between Home Office and the detainee is like the slave master and the slave- this is the problem. And also the case workers lie about individual cases, and doctor cases to make them suitable for deportation- this is the problem.

These people- they don’t understand. They are not detained here so they don’t understand the situation.

Already we made a point of grievance and we solicit a reasonable answer from the Home Office, and we are waiting for a reasonable.

It is worse than prison…it’s worse than prison.

You know today- the manager they lock up the door to the yard. They are scared that the other detainees will provoke us. They are not complying- it is our right to have fresh air from 9 o’clock to 4 o’clock.

They are provoking us. Everybody is suffering here because of unreasonable time of detention- because nobody knows when they are releasing us. There have been several reports of the impact on mental health of detention.

I’m suffering from depression.

I’m suffering from depression; I’m worried about my daughter’s birthday coming on 20 March. They are messing me about today- took me to bail hearing without giving me any date or informing my sureties. They are not listening to us- we want them to remove fast-track. Next to Harmondsworth that called Colnbrook and here peoples are suffering from mental health and I hear one guy tried to suicide- today about six o’clock.

The food they give us- even animals would not like it.

You can hear people protesting that they are treating us like animals. People have mental health-depression. They are not getting medication or good food. The food they give us- even animals would not like it. People have not been eating- they are on hunger strike. There has been a lot of racism inside. They are putting them on fast-track; they are putting them on fast-track and processing them within 24 hour. They keep sending back people to countries where they will be killed. People have kids in this country. They are not giving us human rights.

This place is hell; it’s like hell. I’m in hell now.

I’m Libyan. I’m here in this detention. Me and another two friends from Libya. We came to the country with the army as soldiers to train here in he UK. It’s not a real army, it’s like a Militia. It’s terrorist. I don’t want to go back with these people because they are not a real army. I don’t want to kill another Libyan.

They refuse my asylum claim. So eventually we said ok we want to back to go back to Libya.  Please this place makes you crazy. If we must die, we want to die with some dignity in our country.

But they so no we can’t send you back to Libya. the situation is too dangerous. They say no we have to wait until our situation in Libya changes.

The home office tried to make a deal and send me to Tunisia. But it’s too dangerous in Tunisia. I am Libyan.

The Libyan army is not army…it is like militia. I want to claim asylum. From the police station they bring me here to this detention…they refuse everything- the same thing happened with my friend. He claimed asylum and they refused everything. When they refuse everything we tell them- this is our country, we love our country, but the situation is too bad. They said they cant send you to your country now because the situation is too dangerous, and I asked them- “if you know that the situation is danger in my country, why you don’t accept my asylum?”. They said- “yes the situation is too dangerous, but you don’t have a personal thing…a personal risk in your life”…what do they want, a personal thing more than “my brother is killed”?! But they don’t…they don’t care.

So I told them ok, send me to my country: I don’t want asylum, I don’t want this country. I think this country before I came- the ‘great British’ is human rights, justice, or something like that, but I’m here five months and I don’t saw anything like this. This place- like North Korea or Iran or Libya; the same situation- no nothing. You don’t have the right to express. You don’t have the right to do anything.

So- two weeks ago they told me and my friend: “we want to send you to Tunisia”. And the Libyan army are waiting for you in Tunisia, and take you to Libya. I told him how I scared for the army- and to claim asylum and everyone knows in the Libyan army, especially in Tripoli- they know us and that we have claimed asylum. It’s too dangerous.

Ok, and the second thing- the next week they come to us and they say “Ok. We send you to Tunisia, but the Libyan army won’t be waiting- you go by yourself; do what you want; no solution for you”. But I think it’s not fair! How I can to my country- to the Libyan border between Libya and Tunisia; it’s too dangerous- it’s big militia, it’s big terrorism, IS, and many many militia and all the wars. All the United Nations wars that the British government; everyone; they know the situation, and everyone is scared now from Libya. Even Egypt- our neighbour- they told the Egyptian people “go from Libya!” because it’s too dangerous. Only the Libyans now in Libya- we are in the hell. Our country is destroyed; our life is destroyed; everything, but they don’t care. We want back our country but they don’t want to do this thing for us.

Now five months- I think it’s too long. We are on the fast-track. My solicitor said to me: “Fast-track is three months. If they can’t send you to your country they have to release you”, but this has not happened. And to be honest, I’m done here. I lost maybe ten kilogram my weight, and my mind isn’t focused, and very nightmare; bad thing happened to me. And, I don’t have the money to call my family. Maybe my mother called me one time in a month. And many things happened to my family, to my relatives- I don’t have a solution to call them, to know the situation. They give us only one 75 pence a day. And you have to wait maybe one week for a top-up five pounds. And the situation is not fair.

I ask everyone care about human rights and justice, because to be honest this is shame the UK. UK is defend human rights and everything all these years and in 2012 I go to claim asylum in Sweden. In Sweden, they release me on the second day. They don’t want me in this prison. And anywhere; in Germany I have relatives in Germany and everywhere- they don’t put them in this prison. Only the people who do criminal records- I don’t have anything; I’m very peaceful. They take my freedom.

I think this is the human right- but to be honest I don’t…I don’t believe anyone in this country talking about the human rights. Especially the government- they talk about human rights and war on Iraq and Libya and everywhere because of the human rights, blah-blah-blah, but this thing is only talking! No justice; no human rights, nothing. Just talking.

I want anyone to help me to get out from this place because…many people try to kill themselves. Three days- the people make hunger strike here, but no-one can do anything. If anyone can help us…help me. I don’t talk about myself but I’m in the baddest situation- the baddest thing here because I’m Libyan.

But I’m talking about the six hundred people who are with me in this detention. This thing is not fair. If this place was in another country all you would see is BBC and every media…but because it’s a place in the UK they defend…so when I say to the Home Office “This place is prison”, they say to me “No- is not prison”. Look now…and the door close on me, the small room with another man, and they close the door on me. And if I have a headache or something like that- they take two hours. This is my story. This Libyan situation is totally…and my life…everything happens to me in my country: killed, torture, prison.

This place is hell; it’s like hell. I’m in hell now.

And that’s all…thank you so much.


We have not eaten for four days now.

I am calling from Harmondsworth. We have not eaten for four days now. And three people have collapsed from not eating or drinking. There are no human rights- no media is coming inside. We need the media to come us- we need them to come in and see what is happening inside. I am calling on behalf of people from Morocco, Benghazi, Pakistan, Egypt- lots of countries. India. We have three people from Libya here. We have been arrested here for around five months- we are not criminals. End fast-track. They haven’t given us any solicitor- anything to fight our case. Everything is being refused. Anything is being refused by the Home Office. Everyone has a dangerous life- no solicitor; how do I fight my case from within detention? I don’t know about the law; I don’t know anything. They just keep me here, and I get a refusal, and they send me back. The judge makes a judgement without a solicitor- how do I fight my case? And they keep us here for five months. And they don’t see about our cases. My first language is Arabic- so my evidence will be in Arabic. How will the judge read it? No translator- nothing; they just make a refusal. How can you refuse something if you haven’t read it?  All we need- I am talking on behalf of everyone- we need to end fast-track for everybody. We need the Home Office to read our cases properly- they don’t take time. If we give interview today, they refuse tomorrow. It doesn’t matter where you are from- they refuse you. It’s like they just make copies for everyone.

Nobody is listening to me. What can I do?

I am in Harmondsworth. They put me on a fast-track- they didn’t give me time. We’re not allowed to go outside so I could not prove myself. They didn’t give me a doctor’s appointment before the flight. Doctors have no time. After I left my house…you know some people in Pakistan are trying to find me. They want to kill me. They know what time the charter is coming back…they will wait and find me. This is very big trouble for me. My weight was 90 kg, now I weigh 65 kg- they have this on record. I was very very depressed. I’m slowly slowly dying here. It is better to not go back to my country. It is better to die here. I can’t sleep more than one hour, two hours. I don’t wanna go back. I’m here more than 5 months…if they put me here for another month I’m gunna commit suicide. Already I’m very in trouble- mentally. I’m not in a good condition. I don’t wanna stay inside here. My solicitor says “I try, I try, I try”. Nobody is listening to me. What can I do? Some people are still on hunger strike- they don’t eat. Every night they hit their doors- they make noise. The guards just listen and that’s it- they listen to immigration. They don’t listen to us. Thank you for listening to me.