Now they want to take me back on a charter flight to Nigeria.

I’m in Colnbrook detention centre, very close to Heathrow airport in London.

I was detained in Morton Hall last week and then they brought me here.

I was supposed to have an appointment. An eye appointment in Derby with a doctor. I had to book a new one for next week. I told the immigration officer about it but they won’t let me go to it.

Boko Haram drove me from Nigeria. My wife left me. My daughter left me. My brother brought me here. I have built a life here. I have a new girlfriend now. I have been here 10 years. I’ve been here ten good years.

Now they want to take me back on a charter flight to Nigeria. Where would I stay? I’m in a very terrible situation. Last night, I woke up in the middle of the night screaming and my heart was racing. I was sweating, the bed was soaking with sweat because of the fear about tomorrow.

I don’t want to go. I have nowhere to stay. Even my brother called the Home Office and spoke to the caseworker. He said “What is the problem? This is the only brother I have. He has depression. There are only two of us. Leave him alone.”

But they just said go to see a lawyer. With the lawyer, I put in the papers and they denied me. They just denied me. The lawyer said there’s nothing they can do.

My brother is crying every day. Since I came to this country I’ve been staying with him. I’ve been in his house. Somebody who has left his country of 10 years. How do you want them to start their life all over again? I’ll be destitute.

I learnt from someone that there have been protests in London against the charter flight. They should stop chartering people away. The protests are justified because when you see people who have contributed in one way or another, people who have stayed here for a long time, and you are doing this to them. When they don’t know anybody there. You are just saying to them go back to the country and die.

On Christmas Eve they tried to send me back to Baghdad. When they tried to send me back, they put me on the plane, they twisted my arms, put handcuffs into my wrists, nearly breaking it. They said this is our job.

I have been in the uk since 2002. I came from Iraq, I was injured and I was beaten nearly to death.  In 2001 I went to Germany, but I was refused asylum. I came to the UK because I was worried Germany would send me back to Iraq. In 2006 I met my now ex-girlfriend. We were together until 2013. She had said to apply for a visa with her, so I applied in 2009. I got a visa in 2013. But sadly, we are no longer together. Immigration said to me, because I applied for visa through her but we break up I have to back to Iraq. I am not coming here for visa, I am not coming for this reasons, I came here for my life. I apply for asylum but because I am not wth her they give me refuse. I applied again, I got refused agin.

In 2015, ISIS start killing people for no reason. I had a friend who said ‘why not come to church?’ I changed my religion, I became christian. People are not happy with me because of this, they speak bad about me. After that, the Church baptise me, we did that, then they put my picture on facebook. Then everyone knows I am Christian, everyone knows my situation. Most people don’t want to talk with me anymore, they say to me I shame myself by changing my religion.

2016, immigration come to my house and arrest me, because I have family life visa, which has run out. But its not about that I came here to apply for asylum. They said “we don’t believe you”, they said they don’t believe I change my religion. I said “how do you know what is in my heart?”. They said I don’t have enough evidence. what evidence? My religion is in my heart, how do they know?

Last year, on Christmas Eve they tried to send me back to Baghdad. When they tried to send me back, they put me on the plane with, they twisted my arms, put handcuffs into my wrists, nearly breaking it. They said this is our job. I am human why you do this- they said we have an order.

In Baghdad there is sectarian violence, between tribes and religions. They say it is safe for Christians but its not safe, there used to be 1 1/2 million Christian, now there is less than 500,000- where have they gone? They have been displaced, they have been be-headed. Immigration said there is Christian community in Baghdad but I was born into muslim, not into christian religion- this is different. This is different. In Sharia law you cannot change religion. Now immigration say Baghdad is safe.

I was detained early November. Now I am detained about 70 days. First time I apply for bail, they give me a ticket, therefore I can’t get bail. The judge doesn’t listen to my situation. Again I applied for bail and they give me another ticket. This is not on, what they do to people in here. Some people have been here 5,6,9 months. If my country was safe I would never be here. I love my country but they have been destroying it, the UK and America have been destroying it. We suffer like Syria.

I have never been to prison, I have never committed any crime, I have never committed any offences. I understand if I do something wrong, but I didn’t do anything wrong. I just find out my brother has been kidnapped in Iraq, he is journalist working for TV. I don’t know who has kidnapped him. I just want to get out and find out what has happened to him. It is very hard. I never been to prison but I am here now.

Yesterday I wanted to do suicide but they didn’t let me.

The detainees, we saved his life.

See last week he smashed one of the classrooms, the person who tried to kill himself today. In the ESOL class he smashed the class up last week. 

You know the funny thing is there should always be officers here – there should always be an officer at the desk on the first floor, and on the ground floor where we have breakfast. There should be someone there too. If they were in their posts they would have seen the man, they would have seen him hanging there. 

They don’t even say thank you. The detainees, we saved his life. The officers, they show no remorse. 

The manager of activities just saw the camera footage and she was surprised he didn’t break his neck. Thats when she said thank you – you’ve done a good job. She said he was the same person that smashed up the classroom last week.

None of them care what happened. They haven’t asked us any questions about it. No questions asked.

I hope people find out what is going on in here you know. The tax payers need to know what is happening in these detention centres. It is so bad.

This man he jumped from the second floor trying to hang himself

Today was crazy. Really crazy you know. This man he jumped from the second floor trying to hang himself. It was inside the building in the landing. There were no officers on the scene. 

This is what happened. I went inside my room to brush my teeth and when I came out he had put the sheet around the metal bed frame and around his neck, and jumped. We pressed the alarm bell three times but nothing happened. They didn’t come for like 20 minutes half an hour. Only one officer ran the others walked like it was normal and they were smiling. They were smiling and they joked about it after. 

The bell didn’t go off. The bell should be there for anyone to press if they need it but it didn’t go off. This guy would be dead if it wasn’t for the detainees. The staff weren’t even there. When the police came they said they didn’t need to talk to us, to ask us questions but we were the only ones around there – the officers weren’t there. 

You see the guy who did that he was walking around this morning and he was acting strange. If the staff saw him they would know something was wrong but they were in their office having cups of tea. They should be walking around every morning seeing how everyone is but they are always in the office having tea. 

We have cameras in here. He had bedding wrapped round his arm from 8 o’clock in the morning. If I saw someone walking with bedding first thing in the morning I would know something was wrong. The cameras are suppose to keep us safe so the officers can respond quickly. He walked passed many cameras. But they didn’t clock anything. I see him every day I knew something was wrong but I’ve never seen anything like this before. I didn’t know he would do that. I ran out straight away and pulled the bed sheet up but then i realised i was making it worse – I was helping him die so I let it go. I didn’t know what to do. Someone else came straight away and knew what to do, he must have seen this before. He lay on the ground and held his hand to hold him up. We tried to undo the knot but it was hard to do so other people were lifting up his feet from the bottom and from the top people were trying to undo the knot. He would be dead if it wasn’t for the other detainees.

He feels like he fails something but no one should feel like that. We should be looked after by the staff and the home office but you don’t get that in here. He didn’t say anything was wrong. I never saw him speak to anyone in this place. We have to keep ourselves occupied to cope with this place, but you have to do your own thing. 

This place is really horrible. They don’t treat you like a human being, they treat you like an animal, like a foreigner. I’ve been in two other detention centres but this is the worst. The hygiene, the food everything. It is just the way the place is. You can not trust the staff. You just can’t. To them its like ‘immigrants, immigrants’. In other removal centres you have a much better relationship with the staff. If you have a problem you can speak with them but here you can’t. You can only talk to your friends but your friends have their own problems you know. The staff they do they get trained to deal with stuff in here, but they don’t do anything. You never see the staff, the sit at their desks all day having cups of teas. You ask for something and it takes a week to get done. You can’t trust people like that. 

They don’t care. If one person dies its a number, they just put a number down. When people get deported they are happy and say ‘one person down, one less person to stress about’. 

The police just stood in the place where the guy tried to commit suicide for 20 minutes. They should check the cameras, they should take the statements. They didn’t take any of our statements. They should take statements from the people that saw what happened to see what happened. But they said they didn’t need to. Then they left.

The fire alarm bell doesn’t work. The question everyone should be asking is why that wasn’t working. Everywhere you go the fire alarm should be working. If there was a fire what would you do. If the officers didn’t hear all the screaming they wouldn’t have come. Only once I have heard it working. Lets say a fire happened, or a riot. They are over the other side having cups of tea and laughing. In prison the officers walk around and check. This place is the worst place I have ever been. They feed you when you are supposed to be fed and that is it. You do your own life. You have to cope. 

They’ve taken him off to hospital. I don’t know where. We won’t hear anything about the man. Depends who is in the same unit but the staff won’t tell us. We need to get answers, we all saw it. ‘We can’t tell you, its confidential’ they say. But we need to know he is OK so we feel OK. The only way we find out is through the other detainees. ‘He is fine, he is doing good, don’t worry…’ thats all we want to know. 

They deny everything to the detainees here

They deny everything to the detainees here. There was one officer from Colnbrook who now became the manager of all the officers – he moved next door to Hammondsworth. There isn’t any money and there isn’t enough officers so he makes them move between Harmondsworth and Colnbrook. They are supposed to stay in one wing but they jump between – wing to wing and between centres. Half day here, half day there. The officers he have no idea what he doing or know the detainees properly. Because the officer is stress he taking it out on the detainees. 

Last month three Albanians escaped from here. There aren’t enough officers. They have no control over nothing. Since then they made the fences higher, and they put more cameras. 

I say to them ‘I need some help’, when they lock me behind the door but they say they have to lock the door because they don’t have enough officers. They ask me to help them and stop but i have panic attacks and seizures and they lock the door on me because they don’t have enough officers. I say they need to help me not me help them.

I have pneumonia before in 2011. I have been saying please fix the air conditioning. I have seen about six people working on the air condition but in some room its like freezer. I put toothpaste around the machine in my room to stop the air coming out because 3-5 in the morning it is like a freezer in here. In the day time its not working I can’t breath I use the fan. I have two inhalers since the pneumonia I got here before. I didn’t have asthma before I came here, no one in my family had has it.

I cost too much money since being in health care. Because I cost them more money every three – four day they ask me when I am going, whats happening with my immigration – they want me to get out because i am costing them huge money. They want to know when I will leave or be deported. Just go out from the centre. 

Before, about 2009 – 11 above the visit room there were about 24 detainees. They are the ‘good behaved’ detainees and we had our doors open 24 hours. They change it now for women not for men.  We used to have the doors open. Because there are not enough officers they lock the door. In the hospital we don’t have the doors locked – we are ill why they lock the door?  When I go to hospital they put the hand cuffs on me. I’m disabled and on crutches. Am I a danger to the public or something – how am i going to run away on crutches?!

He hiding something, I gonna call BBC

What happened exactly, somebody told me they find [body] in the cell, ok, and I’ve been upstairs and in healthcare up to the door. An officer, I told him, can I tell you what happened? He said, no, I can’t tell you what happened exactly. And I want to find out, get some news. And my phone, I put BBC News.

Yes, a person inside the room died and three officers they didn’t let me go inside to see what happened, I wanted some information. They pushed me, took me out. They pushed me out… they took me to the block. Why he took me to the block? I am not violence I have not pushed anyone. I told him he hiding something, I gonna call BBC, I know you hiding for us, you want secret here coz everyone knows there lot of problem here. Lot of people in the block, some cut his head, some smash his face, too many problem here in the block. Some people have ticket, some people been here 3 years. It’s the worst centre here, Colnbrook.

They didn’t want to tell me what happened exactly and they took me to the block for nothing, I just wanted some information on what happened exactly. The block, they put me there for 2 days.

They put me in a different wing, they took me out from a very nice place, they put me in a shit place now. They put me in a shit place now, a dirty place. They don’t let me back, they don’t want me to get more information from inside the wing.

Why? Why? Why you put me different wing? For nothing, nothing. All night, block, all nothing, never eat last night, I’ve got mental health problem, I’ve got medication. I’ve been healthcare over 6 weeks.

I’m not very well, I’m shocked about what happened. I’m shocked, you know, I’m scared, someone died. You’ve got people worse here, people suicide here. I’ve been to the block, I’ve seen worse people, some people cutting their head, their body. It is murder here. I’m scared you know. I’m scared.

The officer he not happy when I talk to you.

It took him three weeks to get like this while he was here, and he died.

That guy he came about three weeks ago. He came and they put him straight in the health care centre. Room three. Since when he came the officers watch him for 24 hours a day, maybe because he said he was going to kill himself. When someone says they are going to kill himself they are watched the whole day, everywhere they go.

For the first week, week and a half he was fine. Then he was sleeping and snoring too much. He slept long hours. I believe the medication they gave him was not the right medication. Yesterday about 6:30 in the afternoon he came in from the yard, for the fresh air, with three officers and he was vomiting. The officer said he was an idiot. He was not an idiot, he was sick. Either from the medication or food poisoning. The officer said the nurse knows better. But the nurse didn’t know better.

The officer she denied him everything, all night. He died in her name and on her neck. I promise in the name of Allah he died in the hands of that woman. Mr ****** died because she refused to call the nurse again. The nurse only came twice. When she came out she said ‘don’t call me again’. The officers complied with that. 

In the medical centre there is a room for each person. He was in number three. The nurse and doctor here are denying everything. There was an officer watching him 24 hours. The doctor came for five minutes. ‘Hello, hello, hello’ to everyone and then he leave. At 6 o’clock Mr ****** had some medication. Went out into the yard and then he was vomiting. I believe that medication make him sick. He came back in and his snoring wasn’t right after that. I said to them to check him because he wasn’t sounding right and I thought he might have a heart attack or something. I was told to look after myself and not worry about anyone else. 

About 1 o’clock in the night I heard him screaming because he couldn’t breath. She said to him – the officer told him to stop panicking and go to sleep. How can he sleep when he is coughing and vomiting and he can’t breath? 

They say he killed himself. That is not right. I’ll tell you how. He had nothing in his room. He wasn’t allowed to move from his bed, get some water or go to the toilet without someone watching him. He had no razor. If he wanted to shave they give him an electric razor and anyway he didn’t shave the whole time he was here because he had a big beard.

He was vomiting because of food or medication. When he came to this centre he was fit. It took him three weeks to get like this while he was here, and he died. I saw his face it was all red and he couldn’t breath. Everyone is denying everything in here. 6:30 in the afternoon exactly till 4 o’clock in the morning till he died. 

6 o’clock the police come here in the morning. They open our door at 8 o’clock in the morning. In the morning they don’t want me to talk to the police and they take me out of the centre to outside and when they let me back at 12 noon they lock me in my room immediately so I can’t talk to the police. The doctor and the nurse was not allowed to come in to the centre. The police were taking photos of his room. They came at 6 in the morning and left at 2 in the afternoon. Thats when they opened the doors again and I saw them leave. 

The officers watching him, they changed every one hour. They moved between watching him and behind the desk.  

The officer, she said to someone in another room ‘I’m not going to give you anything. Im going to give you punishment.’ He is going to die soon, he will try kill himself, he gets a lot of punishment from her. I don’t hear his voice in the day, he is very quiet usually, only when she is here he screams and shouts all the time. She wants to give him hassle and he has cut himself too many times, all over his face. You wouldn’t recognise him from the person that came in. He is unwell and she makes him more unwell. Always screaming and shouting – he smashed the door on his hands and legs. She makes him crazy, more crazy. Officers get paid to look after us. They lock us behind the door like the devil and treat us so bad. Ive never seen this in my life. Me, I never ask her for anything because I know the result.  

I asked the officer how Mr ****** died and he said he killed himself. I asked how he killed himself when he is watched the whole time? He said he kept his pills and took them all at once. That’s not possible. We are given our pills by the nurse with a glass of water and they wait till we have swallowed them all. These nurses are really experienced, they know when you have pills still in your mouth. I have five pills and I was swallowing them with the water and one didn’t go down. The nurse, they waited there till the last one went down. It is like they are in your mouth – they know what is going on in there. Mr ****** couldn’t have kept all the pills. It was the pills that was making him sleep so much and snore like that. I am very sorry what happened to Mr ******. He was a very gentle man, really. 

They have kept me in detention for 9 months for no reason.

They have kept me in detention for 9 months for no reason. I left my country to seek a better life. Not to be in here. They feed us chips and rice everyday, everday. We are humans, we need to eat good food. They treat you nationals from other countries like animals. We only want freedom but I’ve been in here for 9 month. I’m only 21 years old. Obviously I left my country for some reason. If my country was good I wouldn’t have left. I came when I was 13 years old.

They want to deport me. If I go back to Afghanistan I don’t know no one there. Where am I going go, how am I going to survive. I can’t even speak the language properly now. And they keep me here for 9 months and I don’t know what to do. My father died in Afghanistan and my mum sent me here. I told the social services but the Red Cross can’t find my mum. So I have no one there. The home office just want me to die. They want me to go there and die.

I want people to know that when some people say they spending money on refugees, what they really do is they buy rice and chips and give it to you in here. I’ve seen people in here with mental problems because of what the home office does and I don’t want it to happen to me. They think everyday that they are going to get released. There are people with no support and they get released. And some people who have friends and girlfriends outside they don’t get out.

They are saying you have to have friends who are working and earning money to get bail. The home office says I have to have friends with a thousand pounds in their accounts. I have friends but they’re all in university and those that are working are not earning that much so they can’t be a surety for me.

I should be out. I should be enjoying myself. I should be doing something with my life. I am wasting my life. I should be out doing something for my life and for my girlfriend. When I was out I was doing college studying ICT and business. In here they are just doing ESOL but obviously I can already speak English.

I want people to know what they’re doing to refugee.

CRUELTY, HATRED AND WICKEDNESS AT COLNBROOK IRC HEALTHCARE

In the month of June 2015 publication in Inside time National Newspaper for Prisoners & Detainees, Judge Dennis Challeen wrote an open letter to the new Justice Secretary Michael Gove. He wrote:

“we want them to have self worth, so we destroy their self worth

To be responsible, so we take away all responsibility

To be part of our community, so we isolate them from the community

To be positive and constructive, so we degrade them and make them useless

To be non violent, so we put them where there is violence all round

To be kind and loving people, so we subject them to hatred and cruelty

To quit being tough guys, so we put them where the tough guy is respected

To quit hanging around losers, so we put all the losers under one roof

To quit exploiting us, so we put them where they exploit each other

We want them to take control of their own lives own their own problems and quit being parasites, so make them totally dependent on us.”

In a book “The Rule of Law”, wrote by Lord Tom Bingham in page 3 under “The Importance of the Rule of Law” he wrote:

“ Dicey gave three meanings to the rule of law. ‘We mean, in the first place.’ he wrote, ‘that no man is punishable or can lawfully be made to suffer in body or goods except for a distinct breach of law established in the ordinary legal manner before the ordinary courts of the land.’ Dicey’s thinking was clear. If anyone – you or I – is to be penalized it must not be for breaking some rule dreamt up by an ingenious minister or official in order to convict us. …

Dicey expressed his second meaning in this way: ‘We mean in the second place, when we speak of “rule of law” as a characteristic of our country, not only that with us no man is above the law, but (which is different thing) that here, every  man, whatever be his rank or condition, is subject to the ordinary law of the realm and amenable to the jurisdiction of the ordinary tribunals.’ Thus no one  is above the law, and all are subject to the same law administered in the same courts. The first is the point made by Dr Thomas Fuller (1654-1734) in 1733:

‘Be you never so high, the Law is above you. So if you maltreat a penguin in the London Zoo, you do not escape prosecution because you are Archbishop of Canterbury; If you sell honours for a cash reward, it does not help that you are Prime Minister. But the second point is important too. There is no special law or court which deals with archbishops and prime ministers: the same law, administered in the same courts, applies to them as to everyone else.”

In Prison Service Order PSO3050 Continuity of Healthcare for Prisoners & Detainees:

“This PSO contains guidance to improve the continuity of healthcare received by prisoners. It includes guidance on reception, transfer and discharge of prisoners, with particular focus on those with ongoing health needs. The PSO
also sets out clinical management of outpatient escorts and NHS inpatient episodes. It contained statements that Prisons is expected to treated in the same standard of care as if they were in the community.”

One would equally expect that this guidance apply to Healthcare in Immigration Detention Centres across the
United Kingdom.

I used three adjectives to qualify Healthcare at Colnbrook Immigration Detention Centre. I have used three articles lifted from two renowned and highly respected Judges and an extract of the legislation to drive home my point. I would now tell my story using these three articles to justify that my use of three strong adjectives to describe the services and treatment received at Colnbrook is not unfounded, misguided or a distorted perception of a frustrated detainee.

It is a well known norm that when prisoners or detainees make complaint(s) against member of staff or healthcare
they receive reprisals and constant victimisation as a result of their complaint.

I made a complaint against Healthcare staff who had previously given a confirmation to Colnbrook Unit Wing
Staff not to move and isolate a new resident with medical problem. She confirmed to them without any medical test that I was not exposed to any risk or danger sharing a room with a new resident with an itching condition (I suspected to be scabies at the time) despite the fact that resident (I would called Mr “Z”) had expressed to Healthcare in his own words as he speaks little English, “I am no good to be with anyone or share a room with another.”. When he told me of his statement to Healthcare, I went to the Wing staff and Manager, and not only did I highlight my observation(s) of Mr Z constant loud scratching of his body throughout the night but my concern(s) and fear(s) that I am at risk of getting infected with the disease/condition. I was quickly told that the lady at Healthcare confirmed to them I am not at any risk. But four days later, my body was on fire, I was itching all over my body and had sleepless nights.

I was so frustrated at this fact that I raised this serious concern to the staff. I got even more frustrated when the same lady at healthcare who had confirmed to the staff that I was not at risk repeatedly blocked me from seeing the doctor(s), saying she has seen me. That it was not scabies but a normal itching despite the fact my body was red and covered with bruises.

I wrote complaint after complaint to the Manager Colnbrook, Manager Healthcare and to the Home Office. For over three weeks neither myself or Mr Z was seen by a doctor until Mr Z wrote and submitted a complaint himself. We did not know at the time why the Healthcare, after the receipt of Mr Z’s complaint, quickly came after him before he returned to our room and called him for a doctor’s appointment.

Little did we both know that the Colnbrook Healthcare staff had confirmed to Home Office the previous day, before the receipt of Mr Z’s complaint, that he was fit and well for his Asylum interview. Because Mr. Z had declined to attend an Asylum interview citing ill-health and the fact he had not slept for weeks. The Home Office refused his Asylum Claim application on the grounds for non-compliant citing ‘confirmation of good health’, received from healthcare despite the fact that Healthcare was aware he was sick and in receipt of my numerous complaints. It was one single person (a lady) at healthcare, doing all these and preventing both of us (myself and Mr Z) from seeing the doctor.

It was during Mr Z’s appeal against the decision/refusal of his Asylum claim by Home Office that I asked him to hand over all my complaints to his solicitors. These complaints and list of medications prescribed by the same healthcare who had earlier confirmed that he was fit and healthy were presented to the Judge who questioned the Home Office decision in court. They admitted receiving my complaints and it was established that Colnbrook healthcare had misled Home Office. Mr Z was later released on bail shortly after this hearing.

While Mr Z was leaving the centre on bail he said to me, “I am a good Muslim, therefore I would tell you what I have done behind you. If at any time you feel pains around your chest area. I may be responsible for it because of my stay with you in the same room. Call me to be your witness at anytime as your witness I know I am dying. I told healthcare I am not good to share a room with another person they did not listen. Look at how you started itching few days after I moved to your room. When you were complaining to staff for them to move me away from the room. One staff member told to make a complaint against you, that you threw a chair at me. I am really sorry. You are a good man. It is now your complaints that helped my case. I want to be your friend. Please forgive me. Please here is my mobile number contact anytime you like and I would always pray for you and may be come and visit you soon.”

How else can I describe this kind of behaviour and conduct? That is why I called it unconscionable behaviour and an absolute cruelty and wickedness. How else can I describe this conduct? That was why I was compelled to use to Judge Dennis Challeen’s open letter to Michael Gove, in which his words capture the events taken place here. He wrote: “we want them to have self worth, so we destory their self worth, to be kind and loving people, so we subject them to hatred and cruelty.”

How can a staff/nurse of a Healthcare at Colnbrook Detention Centre in a democratic society like Britain float the rules, regulations and standards of NHS and Nurse Standards, fail to comply with the guidelines in PSO 3050, subject detainees through weeks and months of unbearable pains, sleepless nights, anxiety and frustrations be so high and above the rule of law? That was the reason(s) why I cited Lord Bingham’s quotation in his book “Rule of Law”

Victimisation after numerous Complaints I made repeated requests to see the doctor but was denied. I was referred to see the doctor by the nurse after obtaining my x-ray report from Hillingdon hospital but each time my name was taken off this list by the Healthcare staff, which I suspect to be the lady I made a complaint against earlier. The series of events leading to my name being taken off mirrors when I was deliberately refused access to a doctor when I contacted an infection from Mr Z.

I contacted the Manager, Healthcare Colnbrook IRC on 9th, 11th and 13th December 2014. I contacted Home Office on 15th December 2014 as a follow up to all these previous complaints in relation to Mr Z’s infection and risk. Meanwhile I had been waiting for over 19 months and counting for x-ray on my lower back and hip during this period I was exposed to another suffering. I was only taken to Hillingdon hospital for this x-ray on the 1st of December 2014. It was just 9 days after I was taken to hospital for x-ray that I started making my complaints about the risk Mr. Z poses to my health by his location to share a room with me. I was made to suffer for over 3 to 4 months before I received reports of the scan.

One whole month went by, without a satisfactory response from healthcare. I believe this was a reprisal for my complaints. I had to contact Hillingdon hospital myself for a copy of my x-ray as Colnbrook healthcare informed me that the scan revealed minor degenerative changes without showing the images. I contacted the hospital repeatedly on 4th and 6th January 2015 requesting for copies of images my x-ray as my excruciating pains on my lower back as result of a fall from a chair cannot be a minor degenerative change.

I was taken back to Hillingdon hospital on 1 February 2015 for a second x-ray which I assume was as a result non-availability of images from the 1st scan. I have shown these images from the 2nd x-ray to nurses at healthcare as the images and the curve on my spine does not seem to suggest that the defect(s) are really a minor degenerative change.

I have since then been referred to see the doctors but again crossed off the list on the day of the appointment. I wrote to the Home Office on 8 June 2015 to complain as my protracted problem has now turned to erectile dysfunction. As I correctly anticipated, my name was taken off the doctor’s list for my booked appointment for 10 June 2015. I asked the Manager of Colnbrook healthcare on the morning of 10th June 2015 to confirm if I have a doctor’s appointment. He confirmed to me that my doctor’s appointment was 2pm on the same day. When I arrived at healthcare and knocked on the door I was informed that my name was not on the list. I insisted on seeing the manager or the doctor as this was 6th time my name has been taken off the list. I was eventually seen by the doctor who informed me he is paid to see only 6 person(s) on each visit. I was also informed that I have been referred for MRI scan which I strongly doubt due my previous experience with healthcare.

During my consultation with the doctor, he asked to leave the room so that he can make a call to the hospital to book for urgent MRI Scan whilst waiting in the waiting area. I got into a conversation with a resident whom I share my frustration and expressed my feeling that it was the lady I wrote a complaint against who is the person responsible for all protocol and assisting the doctor on 10th of June (the 6th time my name was taken off the doctors list). A male nurse heard our private conversation and asked me why I felt it was this lady. I gave him my honest explanation.

The events that happened after this one on one chat was dramatic, some few minutes after leaving healthcare, the manager, the male nurse that overheard my private conversation and the lady I was accusing emerged in front my room looking for me. I was called out to meet them from the IT room and all their questions focused on how I would feel if I am the lady and someone is accusing me of removing their name from the list. No one asked or imagined the cruelty of leaving a detainee waiting for an urgent medical treatment which has affected my erection. When I asked a simple common sense question of why they did not log into their system and print the name the person who had printed the doctor’s list on each of those days my name was taken of the list. The lady become aggressive and started pointing her fingers in the direction of my face. I perceive the conduct as bullying upon the fact that they had shown me no evidence the referral for MRI Scan has been done.

Is this not cruelty? Is this not victimisation for making a genuine complaint? Do I need to die before I receive treatment at Colnbrook Immigration Detention Centre?

Where do I even begin about my immigration detention and where do I stop?

I have been in detention under immigration powers for 17 months and counting for enforcement of a confiscation order. I have no words to describe how the system is manipulated to favour the CPS and Financial Investigator on my case. I have no words to describe how a police officer turns up as Home Office witness in all my Immigration Bail hearings to present an non-disclosed evidence and made False Statement of Truth “that a Judge had ordered during my confiscation proceedings that I should not be released on bail until payment of confiscation order or deportation.” It is fair to say, that this huge Confiscation order which the SSHD is using her immigration powers exclusively for deportation/removal purposes, to enforce was an order, the defendant was never allowed adequate time and facilities to discharge my burden of proof. An order where the confiscation time table was repeatedly changed numerous times by the Financial Investigator with ulterior motive of possible guilty verdict in his wife’s case (where evidence CPS witness lied in her testimony and under oath). An order where I was even declared ‘missing whilst in custody’ and subjected under duress by my own Barrister to accept a settlement with prosecution without a contested hearing. An order where I had less 12 working days to present my defence and had to attend all my legal visits at a court to avoid the frustration of the SSHD and Prison Service.

Where do I even begin about my immigration detention which I akin to ‘concentration camp detention’ and where do I stop. Is it from the excessive movements/transfers from one immigration detention centre to one prison or another every second day? or Is it from lack of adequate medical care where I had to wait for over 21 months for x-ray on my lower back and told that a fracture was minor degenerative changes. or is it from my forceful movement back to prison after my solicitors had discovered and obtained court order to only see me in court building to take legal instructions. or is it from my detention at HMP Pentonville where my long distance learning course material and books taken away, my social visits cancelled whilst my wife and kids are standing outside the prison or incidents were prison staff constantly had to read my self-paid Newspapers and complete Sudoku before giving it to me at 8pm or staff telling me to vacate my bed space and mount a double bunk with four days old amputated thumb or incidents where I was called a “fucking black cunt” was incessantly victimised and punished for making complaints against staff. or is it from my detention in a prison facility until such a time when time had elapsed for me to challenge the SSHD decision at European Court of Human Rights. Or is it from the incident where the purpose/reason for maintaining my detention was dramatically changed from outstanding confiscation order to Asylum Claim after Bail for Immigration Detainees challenged my Home Office Caseworker. or is it from the incident where my Judicial Review to challenge the lawfulness of my detention was refused because the Counsel for the SSHD said it lacked focus as I personally prepared it.

The overwhelming plight of foreign Nationals in UK detention centres under immigration powers can never be captured through any report my case is a testimony. My dear mother sadly passed away after unbearable agony and frustration watching how police tried use a false witness to convict her daughter in-law. I have now been separated from my wife and four kids who are all British born and British Nationals for almost four years when added with the 17 months and counting in immigration detention. I recently received a letter from the Home Office to attend an Asylum interview at Colnbrook IRC at 1.30pm. I requested as advised from the same correspondence for tape-recorder because I do have a legal representative. The Home Office lady turned up at 8.45am and produced for this interview earlier scheduled for 1.30pm without my paperwork or tape-recording facilities I had earlier requested four days prior to this interview. I would conclude by saying that what my eyes have experienced in my 17 months and counting under immigration detention is beyond torture and something not expected in a democratic society like the United Kingdom.