For the fear, that you run away from in your country, is the same fear you face in the UK.

We all have one thing in common, that the Home Office is refusing everything. You give information they refuse it, you put in a judicial review they refuse it, you give them application and before you know if it’s refused and they give you ticket for deportation. They really didn’t have time to read it and consider the application. People are being deported back to counties where they have fled, from Afghanistan, from Pakistan wherever they have come from and are being sent back there. LGBT people it’s so hard when you don’t want people to know about your sexuality. You are cornered in a box and you can’t come out and be free.

For the fear, that you run away from in your country, is the same fear you face in the UK. It’s really biased, and for some ladies they have been in detention for over a year. The problem is not even one months, two months, it’s the uncertainty of tomorrow. You don’t know what tomorrow holds or what is going to happen to you.

Before you know it they are rounding people up in the middle of the night, at 11 at midnight, at two o’clock in the morning and the next day you don’t see them. They lock them up in offices and then you find out they are deported. Someone had an appeal coming up in a few months but she was deported. This is not okay. A lot of people cannot speak English so how can they understand their cases.

Even in healthcare, these people aren’t listened to because they can’t explain their ailment, they nurse says come back with someone who can interpret. The healthcare itself needs a whole reshuffle, we need trained nurses and doctors. You can’t tell me this person is going to know if I’m ill, when that person is in the library, in the shop and also in the healthcare centre. They prescribe paracetamol so the doctor can see you are taking medication and then maybe he will prescribe you what you need. All I get is paracetamol and ibuprofen, and then if I take that every day the doctor can see I’m not well and then he will give me the medication I need. They need to see you bleeding. Some of us are mothers, we need to be taken care of.

It’s just too much, some of us were born here but because their parents didn’t do the right paperwork, they’re in detention and It’s not their fault. They cannot go back to a country they’ve never been to. Some people have been here since they were 8 and now they’re in detention, they’ve been here as long as they remember, they don’t have travel documents so they can’t go back. To be deported to places you don’t have any memory of.

There are women here who are old, between 50 to 69, why do these women need to be deported? How much taxes are you going to spend detaining and deporting an old woman.

The home office needs to listen, be realistic and say, ok this woman came here when they were really young, how can they go home. Imagine if it was their daughter, who had been living her for 15 years, would they send them back to a country.

It’s really about the home office not listening. They have the articles about LGBT people being killed in these counties, and they still don’t believe that it is dangerous.

One of them has to be washed and dressed by a fellow detainee, she’s been here for months. She has British citizenship, she did something and now they want to deport her.

Where is the compassion, where is the forgiveness?

Why do they continue to punish people for something they did, when they serve time in prison and repent. They should be forgiven. These people have lived tough lives, victims of torture, of rape, hard lives. When you sit down and hear their stories, how can you send them back to places they’ve never been.

To really get to a place where someone can help you, you have to get to a mental health personnel, and even then they say, oh you are only saying that so you can stay in this country.

When you have a migraine, a stomach ache, the doctor says how can this be, you are just saying it.

It has been ok, they are waiting to see if we do anything violent, but there will be no violence, no abuse, we just want to be silent, calm and respectful. There are police in there, and they are just watching people and watching people. Their eyes are on us. But we believe our voices are going to be heard. We’re going to continue until something is done, until we feel like

They are underestimating our hunger strike. They think we all went to the shop before the strike and that we are eating. And they tell one visitor today that they believe we are eating in our rooms. They don’t believe us, they think we are joking.

It’s just very sad, they are going into people’s rooms doing random searches. Search your knickers, pull off your underwear and inspecting every corner of it. You think why are you touching my underwear for crying out loud. When you ask they say it’s one of those random checks.

You can’t even trust the people who are looking after you. They say if you need anything come to us, but they can’t explain to us the things they do so how can we trust them. They searched two of the women who are striking.

I just pray the something changes, and that our energy shall not go to waste. Something really needs to be done. Sooner or later people are so depressed, they start cutting themselves, they are getting suicidal, this is not okay. And then when the officers know about this they start checking on you every hour.

They should be asking why are these women, who have children and families, want to take their own lives.

Separation from our children is killing us, I haven’t spoken to my daughter in 5 months. She’s going to make 5 in May, she’s probably moved on, she must think who is this mother I don’t remember. My friends printed out pictures and send them to me. I can’t even print one picture of my child, they say you have to print educational, legal, I can’t even print one picture of my loved ones.

I pray and I hope and I have the faith. Until I see her and I see her and I say hey, don’t call someone else mummy!

I was going to teach a new song in choir, so I go to photocopy the words. One officer he asked what are you photocopying, no one has ever asked me before, what I am photocopying, nobody cares. He says is that for the thing you’re doing, all those demands and stuff. I said I don’t know what you’re talking about. It was just the words for a song.

We are keeping on strong, it’s hard but we have to be strong. We are fighting for the voiceless. I wouldn’t want anyone else to experience this, even my worst enemy.

We pray in this strike that we are accompanied by prayer, hear our cries and make a change for us.

I feel like I have already been removed from society

I feel very isolated in here (Yarl’s Wood). It’s not like just a lonely feeling. It’s a different kind of isolation. I feel like I have already been removed to a place with different laws, removed from my friends and family, removed from society, so far removed from every comfort.

I find myself missing silly things like animals. I want to play with my dog. I have not seen a child in so long, do little people exist anymore?

I miss watching football with a cold Peroni. I wonder what happened in Game of Thrones? silly things really.

I am busy in here though, because English is my first language people always ask me to read documents for them and I want to help as best I can of course I do but it does take it’s toll on me. A lady was given a ticket yesterday and she was so distressed, it could have been avoided had she been provided with the help she needed as she does not read English.

I have to go now as I just received a text to go to reception. Every time I get a text message, I have a mini panic attack. Everyone does, and it’s doing my head right in.

Bye for now

From an angry foreigner who was made in Britain

I am involved in the hunger strike

I am involved in the hunger strike because I think we face very unfair conditions in that we are detained for an indefinite amount time. The uncertainty that we face everyday is unbearable which leads us to have stress, panic, and in turn a lot of health complication. This is the reason why we decided to go forward collectively with this hunger strike. Even though many of us have health issues such as high blood pressure and diabetes we have nevertheless persisted to continue the hunger strike because we want the public to know what we face and make sure there is a change in policy.

We have been detained without notice. Young girls after having turned 18 are sent into detention centres. People who hold short term visas are sometimes sent straight from the airport to the detention centres. Many of us have our cases which are running but the Home Office still sends us tickets to go back home which gives us a lot of stress. Today, 3 girls were given tickets to go back to India. One of them is due to leave on Monday. Her case is running and yet she is given a ticket. What can she do— she only has 2 more days. Even when we try to pave our own path by asking for bail or temporary release we are always refused. They just do not allow us to do make our own attempts through legal paths— they are always impeding. They do not allow is to get work permits outside but make us work for £1 an hour or £3 for a day. It’s very unfair.

Today when Diane Abott came to visit us, we gave her a list of demands on behalf of the women of YW. She looked at them and told us she would make sure that something would happen. She told us that she would take this to the Parliament and make sure that the detention is reduced to 28 days and no longer be indefinite. We have hope but we will still continue with the hunger strike so that something will definitely be done.

We got to see Diane Abbott today

Hello again from Yarl’s Wood

We got to see Diane Abbott today, although they told her that she couldn’t speak to individual people we had a feeling they would try to show her the “nice bits” and so we waited, for our opportunity. I could not accept that I would be prevented from speaking to an elected official, the last time I checked I was still in Britain and not Guantanamo (or am I?)

In my mind I knew what I wanted to say, the points I wanted to get across, so I was very annoyed with myself when she asked me personal questions about my individual case and I got emotional and started crying.

After I got myself together I followed her to the gym and I stood there as I watched all the women sat all around her and her assistants/political advisors telling her about their individual cases, how long they have been here and so on and I stood there just looking at the desperation, it was like their lives depended on this woman and I felt sad.

But still it was good that she came, anything that raises is our spirits is welcome. It made the enviroment slightly less hostile for a short time and gave an opressed people hope.

I wish I could hope.

Thank you for giving me a voice,

From an angry foreigner made in Britain

She managed to see us. Diane Abbott the shadow home secretary was here this morning.

She managed to see us. Diane Abbott the shadow home secretary was here this morning with her entourage. One of them was Shami Chakrabarti, the human rights lawyer.

We, as a group of people who are detained here and are on hunger strike, we wanted to show the management here that we wanted to see her. In case they wanted to stop us, we went down to the reception corridor. We wanted to stop them showing her the better places and stopping our grievances being heard.

I was the first person to say what was happening about me because I was at the front of the group.

We had to go into the sports hall because there was no space where we were. The poor woman had a chance to talk to us all, one by one to hear our stories. She had, to sit down and listen to our grievances of most us, even though she didn’t have enough time for everyone. Even though she was there for 15 minutes, she managed to hear each and every one’s story. Which is what we want- we want people to hear our cry.

We were really crying to her. Even herself she was emotional as well to see us in that state. If you see someone crying if makes you emotional too. Because so many people wanted to talk to her about their experience here. When we saw her, we had all wanted to see her. She was Someone we had always wanted to see.

Her secretary was saying that there was not enough time to hear from everyone and she said we should write our stories and concerns, put it in an envelope or send it through emails. So far, we are happy that at least there are a lot of people are supporting us.

Oh my god, there were people who were crying. People who were detained for 10 months 12 months 14 months. We spoke about how we are not allowed to work outside. But when we came here they want to employ us for £1 per hour for 3 hours in a day. She heard us. If that they can employ us here, why can’t they let us work out there and contribute to the country? Especially those who have lived here for so long.

What we want is for her to go to talk to those people who are in power. To take action and deal with our situation here.

We are women, we have a life. We need to work. Our children came to the UK when they when they were young and now they are being detained. Everything here is depressing.

I want to say to Diane Abbott that we have been waiting for that moment. That she was indeed a shoulder, the only shoulder we have, to cry on. They should act on all the demands we have made. They are all critical. And, please, even if they will not meet all of our concerns, make sure the young people and people who have no lives elsewhere are not detained. The young people are the future of Britain, why do they want to detain them?

They should never call us illegal immigrants – we are undocumented migrants – I can’t wait for it to end, my daughter can’t wait.

Last night a lot of us on the wing we watched question time. There was this lady, Ash Sarkar, who said ‘why do you detain women who are pregnant and vulnerable women and women with health issues and refugees who have cases that have still pending and have rights of appeal in Yarl’s Wood’. And the man, who was part of the government said, they don’t detain such people as asylum seekers. That is a bloody lie. That was a lie from the pit of hell. How can you say that you only detain illegal immigrants who you are about to deport, but then you release them and then you redetain them over again and cause trauma to them for obeying your rules to go and report?

When I saw that, I felt that something is happening out there. And maybe certain action might be taken concerning our grievances and our cry.

[Statements from #HungerForFreedom strikers]

“The mental health nurses treat appointments like extensions of the immigration interview.

And healthcare do not take matters seriously, they just tell you you’re OK… if you’re sick and there’s blood you have to bring proof of it before they’ll see you.

“The mental health department should stop working for the Home Office – people are being asked if they came here knowing if they were going to stay.”


“Home Office officials take matters into their own hands.”


“The diet in detention is awful – most of us are on Omoprozole [a medicine used to prevent stomach ulcers and stomach acid] and iron tablets; we weren’t on those when we came in here. There are tablets to counteract tablets to counteract tablets.”


“Rule 35 – the doctors do not give the detainees ample time to discuss what kind of torture they went through – what happened, when and how it’s impacting on them. They just measure physical scars, and behind those scars, there’s a story. They’re quick to refer you to a mental health and wellbeing specialist, but they ignore their own rules.”


“We need respect from officers, they can’t just barge into people’s room and do random searches.”

They called her, she went to the unit office and then they locked her inside.

[Statement made just after midnight Friday 23rd February 2018]

They called her, she went to the unit office and then they locked her inside. When they locked her inside, that’s how they took her. That’s how they do it, they wait until it’s the middle of the night when no-one’s around, and then they take you.

We heard screams and everyone came out. We were seeing her screaming, screaming, screaming, and an officer was standing in front of the door. Eventually, they took some white paper to cover the window in the door. Whilst she was in there she had a panic attack, she couldn’t breathe. They called the nurses and other officers, it was an emergency. The officer was telling her ‘RELAX, TRY TO BREATHE, TRY TO BREATHE!’

One of the detainees could see her on the floor and started saying ‘SHE’S DYING, SHE’S DYING!’ The nurses came and tried to chase us back to our rooms. She was still in the room and officers were still there, and tried to chase us back to our rooms. We didn’t go, we stayed there.

She had first aid and they put her in a wheelchair. One of us asked them where they are taking her; they said ‘we’re taking her for further treatment.’ We told them ‘you can’t deport her, she’s sick.’ They said they won’t, they’re going to take her to hospital. Now we haven’t seen her and we don’t know where she is. We’ll find out tomorrow if they deported her.

So to give you an update on the events regarding our strike

Hello

So to give you an update on the events regarding our strike.

Well the first day was a great success and the second less successful, as officers do their best to dissuade people from taking part, and many are scared this will affect their individual cases.

I know that the Home Office work tirelessly to deport people no matter what their circumstances, what they may or may not do, I am sick of feeling like a helpless institutionalised victim and refuse to participate in detention.

From Monday the core group of activists will not work for £1 an hour in their kitchens or gardens, we refuse to help them detain us, we say better you pay someone with a work permit a living wage to do your immoral work.

We are not happy here and we don’t want to use your gym, we don’t want to go to your library, your salon, your shop, these are all token activities you use to justify our incarceration but know that we want our freedom not your silly limited activities.

We are not your guests, we are your captives whom you choose when to detain and when to release and when to deport.

I just want to add that I believe whenever there are breakdowns in society mostly of a financial kind, then there must be a scapegoat, usually the most visibly different section of society and they are blamed for the lack of investment in infrastructure, for bleeding the economy when in fact they could never sponge as much as the tax dodging super rich and the lords who go to parliament for half an hour and “sign on” so they get paid for work they do not do. Not to mention the banks, so please remember and learn from the history you have written that today you will help them take my liberties and tomorrow they will use that help to take yours.

Thank you

From an angry foreigner who was made in Britain

The protest is about their system of indefinite detention.

The protest is about their system of indefinite detention.

Inside Yarls Wood, people are on hunger strike – they won’t go to the dining room to eat for 3 days.

They detain people who have appeal rights, who are reporting every month. Why would they detaine people who comply with their rules to go and sign? Especially those who have been in the UK for more than 15 years. And without any notice – not even to your solicitor!

They detain people who came to this country as minors and who are culturally British. They wait until they are 18 and then they are detained. This is due to their parent’s or the lawyer’s failure to do their correct paper work. It’s also due to the Home office delaying things too. The sad thing is, they detain these young people. They don’t even know anything about the country where they are born. Why do they detain them? You keep them here for more than a month, that’s torture enough. And then when they get deported many commit suicide because they are not accepted in any community and they don’t know anyone there. They’ve grown up here, they’ve established their lives here. And then you threaten to deport them to where they are born. What do they know about that country you are taking them to?

[shouting in background] Can you hear how people are angry?

They will tell you that they have proper medical facilities. But you will wait for a month to see a doctor. One instance I have seen is when a wife was having panic attacks because the husband was coughing and throwing up blood. They were separated. The husband is in isolation and the wife is still in yarl’s wood and is still having panic attacks.

After three days of hunger striking, we don’t know what is going to happen. But we have given the Home Office our viewpoints. It is them that put us here, and we expect them to take action to respond to those points.

The people that are out there should approach the Home Office and talk to them. Even if we can approach people in here, no one will do anything because they are part of the home office.

Please take action to talk to the home office. Our voices aren’t heard because we are in here.

This thing of detaining young people who could be the future of Britain. Those kids did nothing to be here. Those people who have been here for 10 years or more there should be given a complete amnesty. We do not depend on benefits we depend on our work and we contribute to the economy of the country where we are now and that is Britain.

People are allowed to work inside the detention centre. In the canteen, serving food, and cleaning. And they pay them £1 per hour or £3 per day. I’m not going to exploit my self for the home office. And I feel bad for those working because they are in need of the right food and they need to buy it. It’s wrong – do they detain you so they can come and work in here and be part of their staff and exploit us?

Help us out there, to get our voices out.

It’s important that people can hear our anger.